Monday, May 23, 2011

The world can be cruel

Since I know nobody reads this, I don't feel awkward posting something very personal on this blog.

I have never in my life, felt as helpless as I have the past two days. There is nothing as heartbreaking as watching a woman suffer through the loss of her soulmate. Especially when the woman is one of the sweetest, loving and most thoughtful people you have ever met. Watching her sitting there at the table, lost in her own thoughts, blind and deaf to anything that is going on around her and knowing that nothing you could possibly do or say will take away the hurt she's feeling. For 57 years she cared for this man, made sure he was fed well and ready to take on whatever the day had in store. No matter how many times they got on each others nerves, or how many fights they had, it only made them stronger. This, is true love.

You'd never think that something as simple as signing your name would one day become something you would dread doing. But watching this woman sign her husbands final arrangements becomes one of the most painful things you've ever had to watch. We all know that one day we die, but why does that not make it any easier to deal with when that time comes.

I hope that one day, she'll be able to think about him without hurting. There is nothing more that I want in this world at this very moment, then for the pain to be gone.