Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I'm so excited...and I just can't hide it!

The time is finally here. After almost a year at Petsmart, I am finally an official pet groomer. I feel like it's taken me so long to finish my training and the 100 dogs you have to do after academy to become a groomer...but it's finally over. I think the thing i'm the most excited about is the fact that i'll actually be getting paid for all the work I do now. Of course I got paid before, but it was hourly...which just didn't cut it. But now, i'm on commission. I love that word :) I take in 50% of all the dogs I do a day. Today for example...I groomed 3 dogs and took in $105. I know it's not a lot...but its a start...the more dogs I groom a day, the more money I bring in. I have so many plans for the remainder of the year now. Hopefully within the next month or two i'll be in driving school. I can't wait to get a car....I so desperately want to go on a road trip. I really want to bring Andrew to Halifax. I want to show him all the places I used to go when I was younger, and meet the side of my family he's never seen before. I love Halifax, it's such an amazing city. I'd love to live there one day.

This blog is so poorly written, but i'm just way to excited to not ramble on and on. :)

I want to go on trips this year...proper trips. To places I've never been. I want to get a car and finally have that independence I've so desperately been seeking. I want to not have to rely on other people to go places during the Holidays this year. I want to come and go as I please.

Things finally seem to be going my way. Andrews doing great with his jobs, he's showing real initiative with one job and people are starting to notice! They've even asked him to take on another section of the site! I am so proud of him and everything he's accomplished. I'm so lucky to have been able to marry my best friend.

Anyways...my "best friend" made dinner for me and it's ready!!!! So i'm going to eat.

Peace out!

Monday, May 23, 2011

The world can be cruel

Since I know nobody reads this, I don't feel awkward posting something very personal on this blog.

I have never in my life, felt as helpless as I have the past two days. There is nothing as heartbreaking as watching a woman suffer through the loss of her soulmate. Especially when the woman is one of the sweetest, loving and most thoughtful people you have ever met. Watching her sitting there at the table, lost in her own thoughts, blind and deaf to anything that is going on around her and knowing that nothing you could possibly do or say will take away the hurt she's feeling. For 57 years she cared for this man, made sure he was fed well and ready to take on whatever the day had in store. No matter how many times they got on each others nerves, or how many fights they had, it only made them stronger. This, is true love.

You'd never think that something as simple as signing your name would one day become something you would dread doing. But watching this woman sign her husbands final arrangements becomes one of the most painful things you've ever had to watch. We all know that one day we die, but why does that not make it any easier to deal with when that time comes.

I hope that one day, she'll be able to think about him without hurting. There is nothing more that I want in this world at this very moment, then for the pain to be gone.